ChickieFUZZ Challenge
Pledge money to those shaving heads ASAP. Contact someone in the local area, donate via paypal or come and throw cash at the shavers! Food, Music, Fun If you've said, "Bald is Beautiful," put your hair where your mouth is...SHAVE IT OFF! ChickieFUZZ ChallengeLong term maintenance has begun as already mentioned. Isa had some tenderness in her abdomen, and I called the doctor regarding a concern about the VOD possibly returning. The office, of course, said that they could do nothing about it without seeing her, and getting labs. Because she was displaying much energy and even riding her bike with enthusiasm, we chose to wait until her scheduled appointment next week. BUT perhaps with this heads up they will run the tests they need and be looking for other signs at the exam.
Next Monday finds us back at the clinic getting IV vincristine. She will continue to have Dexamethasone one week out of every month, Methotrexate by mouth every Monday, and 6 MP every day except for Sunday, unless, the medical staff decides to change this protocol based on her numbers. My guess is that the staff will likely INCREASE her dosage if her numbers look good. This change will obviously affect her because more chemo is more damaging to her cells.
She has lost what little fuzz she had at the beginning of January. I have considered keeping my head shaved until she starts to grow out her hair, but at this time, I am still just considering it. One thing for certain, my hairdresser would love for me to keep it short. Short haired girls get more haircuts!
Thanks for the prayers and energy. Anything can still happen, and we’re on the lookout for those things. Her lungs could still fill up with molds or fungus, she could have problems with side effects of the medications, like trouble walking. It truly isn’t over until it is over. I’d rather deal with a host of sequelae rather than have it be over.
It has been three weeks of dosing Isa with pills instead of liquids through her port. Pills that she has now learned to swallow. (I worry that this will make it easier for her to transition into illegal pill consumption in later years.) Because her pills are to be taken on an empty stomach and not following citrus or dairy, I wake her up to give them. So many times the girls go directly to bed after dinner that giving the dose just before bedtime doesn’t work.
Currently the doctor has Isa on a 50% dosage. Considering that she went through two months of consolidation, and two delayed intensives, he decided this course of action based on his years of experience. Additionally, Isa has no allegiance to any study so veering away from the protocol only affects her, not some researchers study.
Her hair is still gone, her appetite is up, and her energy level is on par with her sister’s. What we’re having the most trouble with, is the typically four-year old antics of “me too!” and the gamut of misbehaviors like, screaming when told no, faking pain, fatigue or coldness when asked for a chore to be completed.
Lont-term maintenance has ups and downs. But one of the ups is that we get closer to being off treatment.
Tired of the room, tired of the food, tired of being tired, we are ready to go home. No word yet about the ANC count. It is a holiday, so even if lab-techs are working, they assume the right to work slower. At least that is what it feels like every holiday in the hospital. Not only are we stuck here in the hospital, but we are trying to move and be out of the house by the 30th. Well as the title suggest, it is now the first. The truck is scheduled for tomorrow. Momma should have the packing finished and then I will have to switch gears for chill hospital parent to mighty mover man. I never expect any help with moving nor have I ever had any. I am a pro at moving refrigerators, ovens, beds, couches, shelves, and such with only a two wheel dolly and muscle.
Isa is doing well, no fevers in 48 hours, eating, playing and using the toilet. Yes, toilets are important. If there is any action on her ANC today we may go home.
Wish us luck.
Even with BOTH antibiotics and tylenol Isa is running a fever of about 39 to 39.3. ( you have to translate it I operate in celsius for body temps!) Her cultures have shown NO growth for 48 hours. For 24 hours she has been taking Zosyn and Vancomycin. Her ANC this morning was ZERO. She has absolutely NO immunity right now. Amazing isn’t it. The body knows that her WBC/Neutrophils are low and it heats up.
From a doctor’s perspective this creates a problem. The fever needs to be managed, as in it can’t get too high, and it could also indicate an infection, so prophylactic antibiotics and tylenol are prescribed for these items.
Wow. Amazing body. Doctors who plan ahead. Loving Daddy staying with Isa. And a whole damn house full of stuff that needs to move.
From the message boards I’ve gleaned that patients could hover around ZERO for a week or more (up to three weeks), all the while receiving the antibiotics and remaining in-patient. OR they can be out in 48 hours. Just in case you forgot we were dealing with something similar in August >>>> Click here to read about one day of it.
Just when I think I can’t do any more or handle it all….. something else comes up.
Rather than bore you with the details just know that all of this is making me stronger. And when you see me in two weeks I will be ONE of MANY with a bald head!
MAKE YOUR PLEDGES NOW TO THE chickieFUZZ CHALLENGE. So far no one has pledged any money. How much is it worth it to you to see a bunch of people with NO HAIR IN JANUARY!! Sounds ridiculous. It isn’t. Chemo is very serious.
Today found Isa playing Wii with her dad. It is on a cart that they can roll into their room. I, however, did not step foot into the hospital. This is both freeing and difficult.
Wow.
So many things bouncing around in my head it becomes hard to sort them all out. Yes, I live in a constant state of confusion. I wonder if they captured that particular aspect of my personality in the documentary about us, airing in February?
Never-the-less (if WordPress had a word counter like Facebook, I would certainly see never-the-less.) Yes I am rambling and I have earned the right! One daughter in the hospital, One daughter so checked out that she can’t stay focused on anything, A husband who is working himself into oblivion and me in a constant state of confusion. At least I can blame it on menopause.
Back to Isa:
Another fever cropped up around 7:30, thus leading to more tylenol and a change of antibiotic, as well as some lovely blood cultures. She now receives Zosyn and another according to Papa’s text message, viacamison. My guess though is that she is receiving Vancomysin. Typically this drug is considered a last-resort. I suppose because the Zosyn wasn’t working to bring down her fever they switched to using both.
The great thing about all this antibiotic use is that she may not even have any bacteria growing inside of her. The fever could simply be caused by her body. GREAT! All those vancomysin resistant bacteria are loving these doses. And let’s not forget our friend Rocephin that she got last Tuesday for a fever that she was running then.
If it ain’t the cancer that gets ‘em it’s the treatment.
So basically, I have no idea when Isa will be getting out of the hospital.
With lots of things on our plate and not enough money to fund them, we’re going to have a fundraising event in her honor….
The ChickieFuzz Challenge.
This event will contain lots of hair.. or shall I say loss of hair! Going bald for a good cause. I’m taking pledges now. Papa & Mama are shaving their heads, and so far I’ve got a few others too. It works like this, tell people that you’re going to shave your head, (they say, yeah right, then you say, no really, and it goes on like this….) finally you say.. okay, you pledge some money and when I come back with no hair you give it to me….. do you see where this is going… then you give that money to us!
Not a dash for cash, no one has to run anywhere, and no one gets hurt doing this. IT IS JUST HAIR… it will grow back. Live life on the edge, go for skin.
Email me for details. dirtymouthmama at gmail (dot) com.
Thanks for reading.
DMM
Each section of protocol ALL 0331 have been somewhat short, eight weeks or less, but today the doctors set a new goal, the end of treatment…..May 2011.
Today Isa kissed Delayed Intensification 2 good-bye! Papa took her to the clinic for her dose of Vincristine and blood work. Today as I stood in the living room with the phone to my ear, I cried. A cancer parent spends a lot of time crying, but today, the tears came from relief. She has yet to start Long Term Maintenance, and the VOD has thrown us for a loop, but we have made it through the first parts and maybe, just maybe we will make it through the next part.
The above, written earlier today, projected guarded optimism. In hindsight one can recognize the “Wishful thinking” considering I just dropped Isa and Papa off at the ER!.
Lovely.
As veteran cancer parents, aka knowing, I waited with Isa in the car while he went in and cleared the way. Every cancer parent with a neutropenic kid knows that they get out of waiting in the waiting room. BUT not all the staff knows this. That being the case this time, Papa cleared the way then Isa walked in unimpeded.
As I type this, I received a text/tweet from @chef_lucien stating that the port accession failed. These trips to the ER can be traumatic in more ways than one. She was just de-accessed today at noon and now, the nurses there have flubbed it. No draw, no blood return. We’ve had a little trouble with this up in clinic too, but in the ER everyone gets freaked out. Deep breath. And I am here at home tethered to the electronic media just as you are.
As I’ve mentioned, platelet and blood transfusion can cause fevers. BUT the nightmarish fevers come with neutropenia. Again neutropenia is a mathematical equation based on the number of WBC. Normal is 1500 or above, today Isa rang it at 108. VERY LOW after being 1088 on Thursday. This low immunity causes a host of reactions.
One of which, fever, can be benign, simply a reaction to being so low. OR it could portend a sepsis or septicemia which can turn nasty very quickly. Hindsight has always shown us… fevers are not such a big deal. BUT, a nurse told me recently that a family ignored a fever and stayed at home. That child ended up in Intensive Care Unit for the past three weeks. Do NOT ignore a fever it can be deadly. BUT… in the other cases, it is an inconvenience. Isa likes the hospital because she gets to watch tv and eat “good food”.
Our hope >>>> 48 hours with no growth of cultures, no fevers and ANC going UP UP UP.
Then she’d be released Wednesday night. Anything other than the above and we’re looking at extra days. So until then email, text or tweet for updates.
dirtymouthmama at gmail dot com
www.twitter.com/dirtymouthmama or www.twitter.com/chef_lucien
and if you know me then you got my number for texting…..
**update***
Tuesday Morning Counts: platelets 17, ANC 0, monocytes 0 She has to stay in until her ANC starts to rise.
23k today >>>>> 237 ml of A positive platelets.
It went relatively smoothly. I can say without a doubt, I’d rather be doing something else, but if this condition, veno-occlusive disease, is as benign as the doctor said it was then I am grateful for a little time to just focus on Isa and family life.
Being with my oldest daughter and with my husband has been amazing. We all love each other so much and how easy life can derail us from those feelings. Gratitude Gratitude Gratitude. I am thankful (that if I had to be married and have kids) that I have these kids and this husband.
The color red represents so many things, one for example, seeing red, could indicate anger, or red as in one of the most common colors associated with Christmas, or in Isa’s case the color of some of her transfusions.
For the most part, transfusions continue to be something I’d rather avoid, however, Isa’s newly diagnosed condition of Veno-occlusive disease, (VOD) or the new name sinusoidal obstructive syndrome promotes platelet destruction, thus leading to, you guessed it, platelet transfusions. So technically speaking, she’s seeing yellow, platelets aren’t red.
Now I’d love to give you more details about VOD, but quite frankly there isn’t much that describes the mild form that she has, especially associated with leukemia, because usually it is a complication associated with HIGH dose chemotherapy in bone marrow transplants. BUT, it is a RARE side effect of 6-tg or 6-thioguanine. Sometimes it has been associated with drugs like Ara-C, Cytoxan and a few others. Therefore, this is quite likely CAUSED BY THE TREATMENT. Ouch.
The only diagnostics the medical staff did were to palpate her abdomen and run more blood work for her albumin and bilirubin. She did not have any MRI or any other imaging. Additionally her urine was dark colored presumably from bilirubin discharge and perhaps blood? from the low platelets.
This condition manifests with pain in the right-upper-quadrant of the abdomen because the liver starts to enlarge. The liver enlarges because the blood gets trapped inside it as the veins start to narrow. From what I understand, some of the liver cells die. This disease confuses me somewhat. For some reason the platelets in particular are at risk. Thus, patients who suffer with VOD continue to have low platelet counts. For example, after her transfusion she could have returned from 4k to 30 or 40k, but Isa only went from 4 to 10k. Likely she will continue to require transfusions until her liver quits trapping them, and/or she has enough platelets to remain above a certain level. Supposedly mild forms of this disease resolve completely. BUT.. it is unclear how long this resolution could take.
Until then we’ll be monitoring her condition closely and subsequently will spend many hours getting transfusions until then.
This week:
- Monday-Diagnosed with VOD, Blood drawn for labs, Vincristine through port, Platelet transfusion, RBC transfusion
- Tuesday-Blood drawn for labs, PEG shots one in each leg, Platelet transfusion
- Thursday-Blood drawn for labs, Platelet transfusion, RBC transfusion
- Saturday-Because the clinic is closed we will take Isa to the EMERGENCY ROOM for her labs to be drawn and likely she will receive more transfusions.
- Monday-Clinic for labs, Vincristine through port and probably more transfusions……
Can I say that this …k… sucks?
But, the alternative reason for her liver to be enlarged could be relapse, so I suppose a case of VOD is better than that! One year ago we were dealing with an enlarged liver due to leukemia blasts.
- Three Clinic visits this week
- Vincristine in port
- Isa diagnosed with Veno-Occlusion Disease most likely caused from 6 TG
- lots of fevers last week and this week which increases chances of admission
- platelets so low that she got what looks like a huge hickie on her neck and lots of bruises
- three blood transfusions so far this week and likely more
- one round of IV antibiotics
- one new baby stroller.
Or rather ducts.
Thanks to a friend with a penchant for talking to people. A local owner of DUCTZ, happened into her office, and when she asked for an estimate, the owner, said, “For our one-year anniversary of being in business, we’ve decided to give away cleanings to people in need.”
Promptly, she called me, and emailed me. If she had used twitter, she’d have tweeted me too.
So our air ducts were cleaned professionally. This company provided a fantastic service and I would highly recommend that everyone consider having this service performed annually. The build-up amazes me, but we all could breathe easier.
Thanks so much to TK and to Ductz for really helping us out when we needed it!
Last week Isa’s ANC leveled out at 665, today it soared to 2700. Because her ANC rose above 750, and her platelets were above 75k, we started the second half of Augmented Delayed Intensification 2. 600 mg of Cytoxan, 45 of Ara-c along with Mesna and Zofran for supportive medications. Today the NP ordered a new anti-emetic that we opted not to use. She vomited last time, but this time I expect for her to sail through sans vomitus.
Today we arrived at 9:00, accessed the port after applying the LMX cream to her port area then drew blood for her labs. The tegaderm we normally use, for both the LMX cream and the port covering, caused Isa’s skin to turn slightly red so for the long-term (remaining accessed for four days) we switched to the special allergic one. We received the results quickly from the lab which indicated that today would indeed be our long day.
During our waiting period Isa started infusing fluids, (potassium chloride) to hydrate herself before receiving the Cytoxan. This drug requires fluids because it could damage the urinary bladder, therefore Mesna is usually also administered. About an hour after starting the fluids the docs require a urine test for several things, one of which, specific gravity, Isa was a bit too high. So we re-tested about an hour later, just before entering the procedure room for her lumbar puncture and she arrived to the proper level.
Local Girl Scout Troop 700 donated some creative items to keep the children entertained. In the early morning she painted a “stained-glass-window” and started on a monster stuffed animal. The back of the eyes and mouth stick on to the fabric. We’ll finish that one later. Also we played a game called Choo-Choo cover-up where we pick words out of a bag, if they match a word on our game board we can cover it up. Isa helped me, matching the word upside-down.
After the LP with morphine, versed and intrathecal methotrexate we ate some food, took a short nap, and watched the movie, Stellaluna. Right now we are finishing a bear movie and getting ready to leave. Before we leave she has to pee again. This seems like an easy task, but not always.
Thanks for reading.
DMM
Today, Isa just had her blood checked, most of it looked good, but her ANC was only 665 which isn’t high enough to start the next segment. The next segment contains some hard core killers.. Like if these drugs were people… think solitary confinement or death row. So rather than take the risk at taking her too low, too fast, the protocol states to wait. The doctor decided to wait a week.
With her numbers as they were, a week will definitely help her reach the goal ANC, but then again, I’ve seen other kids whose ANC stayed low for several weeks. The blood has a mind of its own. This sounds scary, so i will let that image just sit with you.
We inch toward long-term maintenance. Most leukemia families talk about LTM as if it were the holy grail. I’m ready to be done with the hospital all together and LTM still has hospital visits and chemotherapy. At least done doing it alone, all the packing and organizing and getting up early is tough for me to do alone.
Today and yesterday found me dealing with lots of screaming.
Is it because she is four now, and needs to be “heard” as a big girl?
Is it because she just had two rounds of steroids?
Is it because her hemeglobin is low and she needs a transfusion?
Is it because screaming grates on my nerves and she has an innate ability to bug her mother?






